I couldn’t pinpoint it really. It was just a reservation, a cautious wall in my heart.
But one day as I ran the vacuum cleaner over the carpet, I realized how I really viewed him.
Although I gave lip service to a loving, gracious Heavenly Father in theory, practically I viewed him as a wrathful taskmaster who was just waiting for me to trust him so he could jerk the rug out from under my feet.
Right there in the middle of the housework I started to cry. I realized that I had believed a lie.
Maybe you have believed that lie too.
Maybe you have spent time in a religious environment that emphasized outward conformity and religious rules to please God.
And even though you love him, that mental picture of a deity who demands performance in exchange for approval is the one you carry in your head. This is the image you’ll pass to your children.
That’s not what the good news of Jesus is all about.
When we begin our journey with Christ through a heart-cry of repentance and faith, God sees us as completely righteous and fully forgiven—not because of what we’ve done, but because of what Jesus has done.
There’s nothing we can do to make him love us more, and nothing we can do to make him love us less.
He sees us through the righteousness of Christ.
Our own good deeds can’t make us closer to him or cause us to win his favor. They should flow from a heart of love and gratitude, not because we are trying to earn brownie points with God.
We kind of hate that. It feels good to imagine that we are able to do something, anything, to make God happy with us. And we feel we deserve the emotional self-flagellation we mete out when we fail.
The thing about grace is that we don’t deserve it. We never will.
God’s gift is just that, a gift.
Accept it. Accept his complete, unconditional, unreserved love and forgiveness. And just love him back.
The fear will fall away!
This post of part of 31 Days of Fearless Mothering
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